This is a big post for me!

 

Ok, so this is proabably my biggest post yet. I mean it.. This is a really big deal for me.. Ok, here's the "skinny..."

I am posting this photo of myself from our recent vacation to Myrtle Beach as a step.. A small step toward a biiiig ol' dream!
I have come a very long way.. 40lbs to be exact,and I am very proud of myself, but that's not the point. I don't care about losing "pounds," I care about losing fat, and gaining muscle.

It took a lot of guts for me to post this photo..I would never have posted a picture of me in a bathing suit even before I had a baby!.. Ok I know the suspense is horrible! It is tearing you apart...

This has been a long time coming, but I haven't let anyone know.. I AM GOING TO COMPETE IN A BIKINI COMPETITION!!

There, I said it,..in public. So it must be real now... right? I need something to keep pushing me. I have always wanted to do this, but I just never have! I have actually wanted to do a "figure" competition, but with breastfeeding, I can't cut that much fat.. it wouldn't be healthy, and would probably hurt my milk production... but I can do bikini!

Just for clarification because I have had some people ask... I am doing a bikini competition, not a bikini contest..
It is a division of body building.. It is like figure, but with less definition. So it is still a very muscular look...

My body is very different in a lot of ways now. I honestly think it's BETTER! I have curves.. and I am not talking about fat curves,... I am talking about not looking like a pre-pubescent 12 yr old boy anymore!...I am talking about a womanly shape, and thanks to Joe Daniels, most of that shape is, or is turning into, MUSCLE.. it just has.. a healthy dose of ... fat on top of it.. Which is where only I can take over!...
Don't misunderstand me.. I have a long way to go, but I need to know where the tunnel leads.. wow.. I ramble..

So I don't have a show in mind yet.. I don't have any dates, and I don't really know a shi* ton about it, but here's the plan for now..

I am going to continue doing what I do, only doing it more often and doing it harder..that's what she said..

I don't have a definite goal time yet, but I want to start heading in that direction so I can maintain at a normal level, but then just step it up a notch when a show comes around. I want to get the routine and the lifestlyle down pat, go to a show or two to see what's expected, then BAM! I will compete..

Now that you have seen me in a bikini, you kow what I am starting with... Well you don't know the full scope of my mountains and hills, but... you get a basic idea, (no way in he*l am I ready to show you the backside..) and you will be able to see my transformation.

I am putting myself out there because it makes me feel accountable to myself... and it has worked for me so far. So follow my journey or not, it will be here ... good and bad... and there are going to be a lot more posts.. an obnoxious number of posts, so if you get updates through your email.. I'd go ahead and cancel that, and just check in randomly if you feel compelled...

Thanks for tuning in...Stay tuned!